Pidgin Mode

Tonite I called my sister's boyfriend since he is a mechanic. I don't normally talk to him because he is shy, quiet, reserved, and leaves Nikki to do all the talking. Well he pretty much speaks in Pidgin, which is Hawaiian Creole. Growing up here I learned how to speak like that. Its basically a mixture of Chinese, Japanese, Korean, Phillipino, etcetcetc with English as its base. Well when I started talking to him I was using the 'proper english' we are taught, and then I slipped into Pidgin. It was weird, I haven't been a pidgin talker for ages. Sometimes I slip into it at work because the majority of my coworkers were born and raised in Hawaii. For me Pidgin sounds like an accent, but to other people who never heard it before it truly is a different language.

Tonite David and I went shopping. I saw a few of my girlfriends in the Supermarket. After David and I had finished our shopping and we were heading back to load up the car he was talking to me as if I was kinna stingy. He was saying he wished I would be more apt to doing all those nice things like offering to give my friends a ride. I know David wasn't saying that I AM stingy. Well I went back and offered them a ride to prove I'm not a meanie. I would have said YES immediately if they had asked me first. I guess I have weird comfort zone issues. I am so nice its scary sometimes, but I hate to be put in akward situations. Such as asking someone for something. I have this mentality about things. And then David strikes me as the NAIVE kind of nice person. He's not used to being stepped on, and I am. I don't exactly want to hurt David's feelings but sometimes he needs to learn the world can be a cruel place. And yes sometimes it can be happy. Bah well I don't know what my point is. I am scared of doing things that give me adrenaline (I think I have a weak heart, cuz often the adrenaline hurts). Call me a scaredycat, but talking to people I don't know very well has always made my heart pound. Calling strangers on the phone, asking someone the time in a crowded area... I'm just an all around scaredy cat! I guess that is another reason to prove that I _AM_ a cat.