My beloved internet

Oh my internet! How I miss thee so! You have no IDEA... I spent the entire weekend without the internet, and as far as I am concerned there is still no internet access in my dorm apartment. I know how to spend some time away from it, I know its not good to be so reliant on it, BUT NOW WAS NOT THE TIME!!! I wanted internet sources for my paper!!! I needed something to ease my peace of mind!! I needed anime to download!! Its really unfair! :( I never realized how much I rely on Dictionary.com when I am doing my papers. It was really tough to do this paper!! :P I think David is dying more than me. The poor boy finally had a weekend that was homework free, so he bought a computer game to play online. What makes it even worse is that currently that particular computer game is ONLY doing Beta testing on the first weekend of every month. So now he has to wait for a whole month before he can play that game!!! I don't know which of our situations is worse. :P And to complicate things further my car issues and sibling make my wanting to go back home this weekend a little bit of an issue. I really hate to rely on my sister, she lets it get to her head that she might be important. Not good for an already too big ego. Sadly it's her birthday coming up and I already bought her a $50 gift certificate to Macy's. (You can't really buy anything cool at Macy's without at least $50 - and I am trying to be the nice sister here)

Gyah and I got back one of my papers today, for my Anthropology class. I mentioned that teacher scares me - I am starting to get the idea that he's flirting with me. The last time he talked to me outside of class was another very weird conversation. He told me that my Halloween costume was "cute". If this guy hadn't said some strange things to me before I would think nothing of it. He's either flirting with me or just super weird. And I swore to god someone had told me that he ONLY liked Asians. Well today he handed back the papers... and he hands them back individually. He walked into class and for some ODD reason (sarcasm) my paper was in his hand. Must have been on the top of the pile, right? Well........... I kinna handed in my paper with the whole shuffle of students, so there was no reason for my paper to be on the top, unless someone was thinking of me. Man, that's gross! :P Would I ever consider dating a teacher? Hmm maybe if it had some sort of benefits... not gradewise... like, if he had lots of money or something... Ohwell. I might be reading too much into this. Its just that every now and then I get these bizarre hunches about certain people and I often find myself to be correct. Please don't let this be one of those issues... altho if I am lucky I might never take another class from him again! Not that he's a bad teacher... just.. uhh.. It's weird for me to think that I am considered attractive. Growing up here in Hawaii I had the idea that skinny Asians were the most attractive women. I never thought that according to White Americans I might be attractive. Again I emphasize that I don't think I am - this is me and my self esteem issues. But back when I was in California I did feel more attractive... and I guess that's because I tend to find alot of white people as ugly. :P So if I move back to the mainland I might feel like I am a hottie all over again. ^_^ But back to the issue... if that is truly the case, that I am an attractive white-type person, then I suppose being here in a sea of Polynesians and Asians would possibly make some old white guy from the mainland horny enough to hit on his student... maybe he got tired of Asians... or turned down so many times he thought he'd go back to Europeans. :P


Ahh poor David! If I didn't have him I might be a naughty little girl. I am so not worthy of him. He sits there and thinks only of me, and here I sit and think what it would be like if I didn't have him. Ahh he puts up with so much!