Things I wish I didn't do

Well for one I wish I wasn't born, kinda always felt that way. And don't try to give me some mumbo jumbo about how I HAVE to live. Just face it, there are alot of us who don't belong on this planet. This place is overcrowded, there are too many stupid people, and the sheer numbers of people are ruining this planet.

Well there are lots of little things that I wish I didn't do. Those kinds of things are the ones that always make me feel depressed. I'm doing one of them right now.. I came over to David's house and I think I am being selfish. There is a guest over and I guess it is not fair that I want David with me and not entertain his family's guest. His mom already said something to make me feel guilty. But if she really wants to be fair about it all, she should feel guilty for being on the phone when the guest is sitting there. I don't know this person nor have a desire to know them. I don't know how David feels but he probably don't care. So now I am mean and things like that and I am wishing I didn't come here. Should I just pick up and leave? Maybe David's Mom has plans that I have interfered with. How am I suppossed to know? All I did was call David lastnight and asked if he wanted to be with me. I didn't want to stay at home with just my Gramma. But at this point she is looking like the better option. I'm rude, immature, selfish, mean... I'm beginning to sound like my description of my grandmother. Maybe I'd be better off being with her.